Sometimes we just have to stop.
Sometimes life gets too busy, too stressed and can overwhelm. Our goals and dreams become tangled in the matted knot of thoughts and pressures that bombard us daily.
When that starts to happen we lose sight of who and what we are. We focus on the silly, inconsequential things, ignoring what’s important and then a rising panic starts to well that we’re not achieving what we desire, that we’re failing and that life’s starting to unravel.
Well I don’t know about you but that’s what happens to me on occasion and has been building over the past two or three weeks.
This week I was fortunate to be able to listen to Grainne O’Reilly talk about balancing our lives at Carlow’s Networking of Enterprising Women lunch and have been practicing the breathing techniques she showed us that help to calm us when we feel under pressure or stressed (breath in for a count of five, hold for a count of five, breath out for a count of five).
It works, I can categorically say that as I’ve been practising it a lot since and as soon as I was able to calm myself I was able to recognise that I was so busy looking and worrying about everyone else, I’d lost sight of me and who I am.
So this morning and completely unplanned I took some time out. I dropped my eldest to school, parked up the car and sat by the beautiful River Barrow for 45 minutes. I stopped thinking about the dinner, the housework, teaching the class that I was due to see a short while later, social media, my own garden, the bank balance, the replacement car I still haven’t bought since crashing my own and the zillion other thoughts that whiz around my brain every minute of the day. I sat down on a faded and flaky painted bench and allowed myself to soak in what was surrounding me at that moment in time.
The roar of the weir drowned out most of my own noise as the water cascaded down the mossy concrete bank, taking its long journey to the sea. I was still able to hear the birds singing around me as they hopped around the pink blossomed branches of nearby trees and listen to the ducks quack as they jumped out of the river and settled down for a snooze.
I noticed the shadows cast from trees mirrored on the flowing river, the cold breeze on my skin and the clouds as they moved across the sky, darkening the light around me at times and then shining so brightly you could almost hear the daffodils sing as they soaked up the sun’s rays.
I stopped doing everything and lived for that moment in time, thinking how lucky I was that I was able to do just that. How grateful I am that I live the life I do and am surrounded by the people I know in both real life and my virtual social media world. It was a special moment in time and one I want to keep hold of because all those worries I mentioned wont be going away, they’re still there but they needed to be put back into perspective.
I left that tranquil place and drove to my gardening class with a smile. Because I’d stopped for just a brief while I was able to talk about, teach and share my passion for what I do. I was able to function again.
Today is a new day. I’m back. Are you……?